So I am having a hard time being inspired lately. It could be that NYC has made me jaded and I hate everyone and everything sometimes. But anyway...
I keep reading and writing and I even went to draw a nude model last week to see if sketching would bring some creative juices back to my drying brain. It worked for about a day.
I'm not sure what is wrong, but I feel like nothing is speaking to me. I read books and I think, "that's nice, good for him/her." I read plays and think "wow, good writing..." end. Nothing speaks directly to me and makes me want to DO anything with it. I don't feel moved to write a play or memorize a particular monologue or look into a theatre company. I just feel... bored. And a bit numb.
In other news, I am finding it very difficult to sit down and actually work on the things that I have been cast in. Memorization has always been something I struggle with, which is probably why I have been so attracted to films and TV lately. But really, other than the 2 hours I spend it rehearsal, I tell myself to look at a play I am in and then I never do...could be the lack of inspirations.
Sorry for the depressing blog. I guess they have to happen every now and again.
So any advice? What inspires you??
What inspires me is the resentment on people's faces after you accomplish something they thought you were incapable of doing. Don't know if its necessarily a Japanese proverb or not, but I think it goes something like this: revenge is a dish best served cold. And if that's the case, success is the coldest dish one can serve. That's what keeps me going. Well, that and love of my craft.
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